I feel that as a society, we've somehow devolved a little. We get on the internet and have way different personalities than what we really are in true life. Sometimes I feel like I'm not being true to who I am in real life, whether it be on facebook or xbox live and sometimes in these forums. I apologize ahead of time for anyone that takes this to heart who really has been saying things they really would if they were face to face with us in a room.

Either way, I'm Greg Looney. I sometimes feel that I'm never good enough for any woman I come across. Even though I listen to a lot of rock that involves saying how I'll wind up moving on and be better than anyone in the long run, I find myself writing songs that involve me wanting find that one person who I'd give anything for. Sure, I do play a decent amount of video games that involve a lot of fps's, but I always seem drawn to the ones that involve a love story. It must be my real self trying to be the hero and the lover at the same time. I want to feel like a person who won't take shit from anyone because of my military experience, yet I still find myself backing down from confrontations that I'll later tell myself what I should have done, but didn't have the balls to do at the time. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. Sure, I can tell people, "I'm going for a bachelor degree in graphic design" but I still don't know what the fuck I'm going to do after it's all said and done. I'm 24 and I know that there's people way younger than me that have started up families, and I want that. I constantly ask myself what I'm doing so wrong in my life that got me here.

This isn't a sympathy case guys, I just wanted everyone to know who I truly am. I don't expect people to throw their names out there, but seriously, who are you?

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I'm the one fucking this bitch, you're just holding the camera.

"I am me. Nobody else." - Roxas, Kingdom Hearts; 358/2 Days.

That pretty much sums it up. xD.

No, but seriously, everyone is who they are. If you back down from confrontations, then that's just a part of who you are. If it means that much to you to not be rash and confrontational, then you can change that. If you don't want to, or a part of you doesn't want to, then it's a part of who you are.

The goods and the bads of us are what shape us to be who we are. Sure, you can be 'like a different person' when online, or drunk, or whatever, but that's sort of just an exaggeration. What you say online is a part of you, because it's you saying it. Who we are can change with the context and environment, and what we think will be successful, or what we want to be. But it's all just different aspects of us.

I try to bring a bit of myself into this 'forum persona'.

The real me (cuz, y'know I keeps it real!) isn't much of an interesting story. I got my troubles, but so do the rest of us. The only thing that could set me apart from the common slew of white people problems is that I have sleep trouble caused by frequent nightmares. I stayed up all last night baking bread, but the night before I had an unfortunately sexy nightmare.

Otherwise, things are lookin' up. Just got a job. I'm brewing my own summer citrus wine. And a friend from highschool is moving to Pullman. She's helped me through a ton of hardships and she's moving into a house with many hot single college chicks.

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"My job? Toilets 'n boilers, boilers 'n toilets. Plus that one boilin' toilet. Fire me if'n you dare. "

I'm Danny Barbour

I shoot metal blades from my...wait...no...

I'm from Jersey, live in Orlando going to film school. My semesters are a month long and start over each month. I have no summer break and get 3 week long breaks a year. But now that I'm in my final months, It's been a great experience. I'm gonna leave here as a Director able to do any job on a film shoot and my goal is to beg my way onto any position on a Spielberg movie before he retires/dies. I always feel the need to show my confidence, even when I'm scared as shit to do something. I never show fear in public, and the strain is bearable but there. I feel I need to always push myself and prove to others that I'm worthwhile, because of the industry and the fact that I don't have a rich daddy to send me to ivy league schools to learn to become the next best filmmaker.
In my off time from my crazy 16 hour long day shoots for a week at a time, I like to drink, have the occasional smoke, and watch movies/ play Mario Kart 64. I wrote a Megaman script based off The Protomen's albums, and will be spending pretty much every cent I have to make 5 trailers, all from different prespectives of the main stars, Megaman, Protoman, Light, Wily, and the people who rise up with Megaman.

We're making light, non-campy costumes for our actors to wear as they will be doing some crazy stunts. We've designed specialty bombs that will go off without fire for safe, believable explosions. It will have little snips of story. I;m extremely nervous about the whole project, but everything seems to be coming together nicely. I got a great camera crew with one of the best cameras available, a RED.

I feel this is my moment to show what I can do. If I can make a badass trailer for a Megaman movie, then I could get funding. I'm scared as shit putting all my money into something that could be bound to fail. But at the same time, this will be the stepping stone needed to advance myself and leave my mark. If I can get 500,00 views on youtube, I can get funding to make this movie happen. It's stressful putting your entire self on the line for something youre passionate about. But if it doesnt work out, or doesnt get noticed I'll be upset but proud of myself.


And that my friends is the life and works of Diveman .

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Adventure... excitement... a dough manipulator craves not these things.

Hi, I'm Juan Manuel Casillas, Jr. Or, as everyone has known me since the 3rd grade, Manny Casillas.

I've always been a pretty open guy about things. I'm basically the same person everywhere. You guys know first hand I don't hide anything, I could've just disappeared for that time in jail and made it seem like I lost interest in the forum and just needed a break. But that's not how I am. So I just straight up told you guys. My jolliness and faith are extremely hard to break too. While I was in jail, there was only one time that I felt my happiness slipped. That was when I was going to try and get house arrest again, and I was denied, so I was like "Wow, fuck, I might be here for awhile," but I was fine with it. I knew I had my debts to be paid. It's actually bittersweet to be out. Don't get me wrong, I loved that I only did 10% of a year, but it made me doubt the system. The only way I can justify me being out in 36 days was that it was my first offense from me, not to mention my whole family, and the fact that mine was an accident. Yes, I know I knowingly drank and then drove, but everyone else intentionally did what they were in for. I forgot what point I was trying to get across. I was suppose to be talking about me, but wound up talking about this whole thing again.

Anyways, yeah, so all that happen, and I go back and forth on everything. I tend to always fall for my friends too. Gena was the one time I had feelings for a girl that I didn't already know for a year or so. And in my mind, I keep going back and forth on whether it was good or not. Like, yeah, we had a lot of good times, but as Jacky-T could point out, there were also a lot of times were I bitched and moaned on these forums about those times too.

A lot of people believe that I am a bit of a "tortured soul" due to my amazing happiness and caring and everything, yet so much bad has happened to me. People could even tell in jail. I helped people in there. They all hated that I was in there, but they knew I was in there for a reason, and they were grateful that someone had sent me to them. They believed that I was sent to the room I was in to help people. Just to have that many people hanging out to you to have that joy rub off on them, it's stressful. There were a couple of days that I wanted to just say "Not feeling it today guys, go fuck yourselves, I'm chillin' on my bunk all day," but I couldn't afford to do that to them.

Blah blah, I'm a person who borderlines and terribleness and goodness. And I'm fine with that.

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"Divide by Sharpedo? Pft, more like devoured by Sharpedo!" - Jay C; MAGfest 8

Like John Marston!

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"My job? Toilets 'n boilers, boilers 'n toilets. Plus that one boilin' toilet. Fire me if'n you dare. "

I'm Lauren Helton. I am a nineteen year old woman who is about to graduate college with a BA in Psychology, My whole young life has been about nothing but school and my intelligence and living up to what someone else terms as my potential. I guess, in a sense I have never been young. Every choice I make is another move towards this amorphous thing I call my 'future'. I am frightened and intrigued by the idea of being 'just average' because sometimes there is nothing I want more than to be just another person in the world so that people wouldn't hold me to higher standards because of my high IQ. (I think I am attracted to Jay C because he doesn't hold me to higher standards). BUt sometimes I feel like if I was only held to the standards of the norm, I would get bored with life because when (like in college) I can do nothing and get an A in a class, that's what I do. I skate by even though I know if I put in real effort I could accomplish something amazing. I sell myself short but even when I do, I am head and shoulders above the 'average people' and there's nothing I can do about that.

I love to act and sing and perform and write and I have been told that I am quite talented there as well but I am afraid to pursue those dreams because embarking upon a career in the arts is embarking upon a nebulous journey. YOu never know what might happen or how the industry might shift. You may never have a steady source of income and that scares the piss out of me. So I will take the pass of least resistance. My GRE scores and research experience all but guarantee my acceptance into whatever psychology PhD program I choose. Yay me. 4-6 more years of schooling and I will have a well-paying career and my mother will be proud. BUt that stuff isn't really what's important to me...

Love is. (And I know you are gagging reading this but it's true). I want to find that person that I just click with and share wild nights and wonderful days and travel the world and have crazy sex and maybe even pass on my genes. But, newsflash kiddos, Disney is wrong and no one you meet will be perfect especially when your expectations are incredibly ridiculously high. My mother doesn't even believe in love and doesn't think it exists and fucks around on my father (her husband) with whoever suits her needs at the moment and she assures me that after 20 years of marriage, I will feel the same way, hell SHE DIDN'T EVEN LAST 2! But I fucking hate to think that it might turn out that way. I would never want to play with anyone's heart. I am an incredibly difficult person to date, as I am sure Jay C can attest, because I expect a lot from my guy because I give every bit of myself to my relationship. All of that is compounded and further complicated by the fact that I have been previously sexually assaulted and have PTSD so I trust no man unless he earns that privilege. For the past year and a half, Jay C has kept me sane and hopefully he will keep keeping me sane for a long long time, but you never know because even the best relationships fail.

There is more I could say. But I'll stop here for now because its already
TL; DR

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The Megas: Because sex does wear blue.

Can you see the real me?

My full name is Kevin Randall Cash (which was actually read aloud on episode 108 of Rebel FM). Born in Redmond (on the darkest day of the century), raised in Lake Stevens WA. I have an extensive familiarity with the Pacific Northwest and all it's woodland creatures from old burnt out hippies to young asshole hipsters. My academic career has been that of almost success and near failure. Basically I'm wasting potential that might not even be there. My social life has been much more turbulent and occasionally non-existent. I didn't really have a central group of friends until junior year of highschool, when I stopped giving a fuck about sports. I still keep in touch with those friends, kinda tough considering me living in the east end of the state. I have one best friend. Because I believe that's the set-up that works. Heterosexual/platonic life partners.

I've had this perceived self-image issue since I was 17, and quit swimming because I got pretty hairy. That caused me to gain a lot of weight, and the slope was pretty slippery from there. This also makes me have absolutely no sympathy for girls who complain about being judged on their looks.

I'm getting better about meeting new people. Booze helps. I'm not the most confident or outgoing person, but I like to think that I have integrity in era where selling out your values is the norm.

Also, I'm pretty good at videogames. And Demon's Souls still sucks.

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"My job? Toilets 'n boilers, boilers 'n toilets. Plus that one boilin' toilet. Fire me if'n you dare. "

I don't think I hide that much... i'm a 20 year old male who lives in Winnipeg Manitoba, I am incredibly socially awkward with emotional problems. I've been taking anti-depressants since I was.... 7? I can't remember. I'm insecure about... everything, I crave attention, acceptance and approval. I spend most of time on the internet or working. I have no idea what i'm doing with my life and that adds to my depression. Video games are a huge part of my life. I'm a hopeless romantic who wants to find the right person as soon as possible, I hate being alone.

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I'm fairly certain I'm have depression. It runs in my family, my mom has it, her sister has it, and their mother(my grandmother) had it. I've never been to a doctor about it, but I've taken tests for it. 5/10 means go see a doctor, and I've scored10/10. This is why if you are friends with me on facebook or follow me on twitter I occasionally get all emo. I've always been paranoid with relationships and friendships question whether people actually loved me. I can distinctly remember being on the playground in elementary school hanging around some guys I called my friends when one turned and asked 'Why do you always hang around us? You aren't our friend'. I never really had close friends until around junior high to high school when I met and started hanging with my friends Alex and Daniel (Black_Zero and Shademan on here). Even after meeting them and all the people I call friends, I still had my doubts. What if they're just being nice to me and don't want me around them. I've always just wanted someone to just love me and come out and say that they did. I poured myself into a relationship which failed because I guess I wanted the love more than I wanted to love the person I was with. I used video games and other things to just pass time so that I wouldn't have to think, so that I didn't dwell on painful thoughts. My girlfriend broke up with me recently for similar reasons above, and I was torn. She broke up with me 11 days before what would have been our 1 year anniversary. My heart has been torn and I haven't been able to make much of myself.

But
(Warning, I'm not trying to sound preach-y, but it may sound that way)
This past year and over this summer, I feel God has been trying to affirm to me that he loves me and that he has given me people who love me, and I think it's time I knuckled down and started listening to him. I've got two friends who are like my brothers. I've got a whole host of people who I love and call my family even though we don't share blood. I'm blessed behind imagination with all the things I could want from entertainment to friends to all my needs. I don't need to be so mopey. I glazed over a few things in this abridged post. And I'm not trying to make light of a problem that can be serious. But I'm tired of feeling sad when they're so much to be grateful for. God has blessed me, and I hope he blesses you too

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I may not be a religious man, but if faith it makes you happy and you don't force it on me (which you haven't, and for that you get a cookie) then I'm happy you've found something that works.

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My name is Matthew Thomas Cockey. I'm 24 years old, born in Fairfax Virginia, and raised in Chester Maryland for the last 20 years. I've been working the same shitty job for the last 8 and am now an assistant manager at my store. I never finished college. I never finished my Eagle Scout stuff for Boy Scouts and felt like I disappointed my dad, who was an Eagle Scout, much like his father. I learned to play bass (poorly) about 6 or 7 years ago. I bought a drum set and have been learning to play (and love it) about 8 months ago. I like fast, aggressive metal and hardcore, and I don't play on losing that aspect of music, because it excites me. I'm excited to imagine having creativity in my life, because my work life is so boring.

Like anybody else on these forums, I spent most of my childhood as the shy, frightened kid with no self respect. Here's the thing, guys - that will pass. Once you get out on your own, the people that have stayed close to you are the only ones that matter. Everybody you went to high school with will have their own agendas - and at least in my case, they learn to respect you far more than they could have back in school.

I have tattoos of Mega Man and Proto Man on my shoulder blades. I love them, and hope to get more in the future - most likely starting with Mario and Luigi jumping sprites on my calves. I've been disappointed by every woman that was ever in my life romantically. I've been cheated on, hit, spit on, embarrassed in front of my friends, Hell, I had a girl break up with me when I told her I loved her. Love is dead, and I'm waiting for someone to prove me wrong.

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My name is Callum Julian Kennedy. I'm 16 years old, born in Brisbane, Australia, and raised in Hawkes Bay, New Zealand for the last 13-14 years. I've been doing the same paper run for the last 5 years heck, I even earn minimum wage for it now because they legally have to. Sweet. I plan to go to the Conservatorium of Music in Brisbane in 2013. I decided to play guitar at the age of 8 when my uncle started living in the area near us he played guitar for me a lot, I was inspired and took it up. I played purely metal until about 3 years ago, when I found the soundtrack to Final Fantasy X cool. I started playing acoustic guitar stuff, trying to cover all of it, before branching off into other games. I began classical guitar this year, being thrown into grade 5 theory after two months of tuition. I like any form of music except for dubstep and people who try to be too serious rapping and stuff like that. I have recently developed a love for Post-Rock, something I cannot believe has touched me this much. I hope to secure a job in the future writing soundtracks for video games and films. It's been my dream for the past few years and I've even begun with it. I'm currently scoring the soundtrack for an RPG being made in 32 bit style called "Angeles Chronicles". I'm about 1/4 of the way through that soundtrack so far.

I began life as a child with no self esteem, I had a few friends that were really good to me. I cried often and my parents were ashamed of me, sending me to counseling often. When I moved into year 7 and 8 of school, my friends began to abandon me... leaving me a sad child who was left unwanted. I entered High School with two friends. Not only counting close friends. Just counting friends. I began bands with my two friends. I spent most of my first year with them... until I met my best friend. His name is Daniel Light and I instantly hit it off with him. He was humming the trainer battle theme from pokémon red/blue/yellow... so I joined in. He turned over to me and asked me what my favourite pokémon was. I replied "Tyranitar", obviously the correct choice because he said "good you're not a fag". We've been best friends ever since.

I do Kyokushin Karate and I'm currently a Green Belt Brown Tip. Hopefully grading for my Brown Belt in September. When or if I get my Black Belt I plan to tattoo the left side of my chest with the Kanji on the Gi of Kyokushin Karate. It is as follows.
I recently shaved my hair that I had been growing for five years for cancer research, I raised $1500 in the process. My current school subjects and my ability in them are as follows:
English - Great at Unfamiliar Text, not too good at the rest.
Maths - Top of the class. Chur.
Chemistry - Hate it, not too bad at it though.
Drama - Not the best in class, but not the worst, my bookwork is the best in the class though.
Music - Probably the worst in the class given my rock background. I'm extremely enthusiastic though, delivering good grades and results.
Japanese - Top 5% of the class. I just have a natural ability for it.

I'm sick of love already and I'm in High School... time to fire up the old counselor again.

Now that I'm in my second to last year of High School I actually have several friends, several GOOD friends. Probably because of the billions of bands that I've been in. Meh.

tl;dr Tuberz covers music, Get's friends, ???, Profit

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I'm Stevie Grant and you probably don't wanna hear it.

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IT'S TEA TIME!

I'm Alex Keswick.