I was thinking about how we've kind of been feeding the same handful of threads over and over for quite a while, so I thought it might be fun to open up a new line of discussion.

Feel free to use this thread to post any weird, personal, or awful thoughts/feels you'd like to get off your chest, even if you don't necessarily want to have a discussion about it. Whatever comes to mind that maybe feels a bit too sensitive to just dump in current events. We're all bros here, so don't be shy.

Play nice, or I'll sick Jay C on you.

I've been pretty down on my luck recently. My employment situation is ambiguous, I can't get into any classes for my major, and when my dog passed away I realized the last time I was home was four months ago, so the only thing on my mind is homesickness. Trying to occupy my time with partying, videogames, or any other source of sound/light/movement hasn't really helped elevate my mood, and some people have seen through the act.

It just sucks being sad. I need a vacation like a fish needs water.

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"My job? Toilets 'n boilers, boilers 'n toilets. Plus that one boilin' toilet. Fire me if'n you dare. "

I dress in women's clothing and hang around in bars! Ha!

No, but seriously, I do like guys. I like girls too, a bit, but I prefer guys. Romantically, if that was not clear. I bring this up here because it is not a huge part of my life, and I really don't want to ever make a big deal about it, but it's still a thing, and I thought you should know. It will probably never come up again, which is why I'm posting here. So yeah. That.

I like girls and guys too.
I just prefer men.
<3

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The Megas: Because sex does wear blue.

Everyone likes girls, that's not news.

It's because of boobs.
You can't not like boobs.

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So true.

I'm not actually Iceman... I'm Ice Man.

... Woah.
Just "Woah."


Joking aside. I kinda have a hoarding problem. Both in Bethesda games and in real life. I have over 600 dino toys lying in my "Old World Blues" house in Fallout: New Vegas. Whatever the max amount of Dino toys is in that game? That's how many I have.

IRL I have two rooms in my parents house (where I live). One is living space with Video Games, some fancy collectables, a bed, two TV's. Just a normal nerdy teenagers room. My other room has a bunch of, well, crap. I have a few old toys that I don't want to get rid of even though I have no feelings for them. A lot of the crap is collectables. Like video game related... shit. But some of it is just crap. Like old playdoh. (Which I could actually throw away and not feel bad. I just haven't. xD)
It's not like there's "OH GOD SO MUCH I CAN'T EVEN WALK AROUND SHIIIII-" stuff. Just it's extra things that I really should get rid of or at least pack properly. Which I have been doing... Slowly. I packed some of my boxes away into boxes.... I mean like Video game boxes. What Skyward Sword, Mario Kart Wii, and Animal Crossing City Folk came in along with a majority of my GBA game boxes. I even still have our old N64 box.
I suppose my real problem is I like collecting too much. I have a list of 200+ games I'd like to obtain before I die. It started out as just a list of games I could reasonably get. But around 60... something changed... Something went terribly wrong. I started listing games that I couldn't even play because I'm lacking the system, like Sonic the Hedgehog. Even games that suck ass. Such as Superman 64 and Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Even listing Animal Forest for the N64. Do you know what that is? It's just the japanese version of Animal Crossing. True it never released on the N64 in America. But still. Really?

I guess a lot of people collect games and nothing's wrong with that. But I'm an impulse buyer. Not good with video games. I could go out and get a job. Let's say the paycheck is like $600. Let's say I want to save it. I would then go to Hastings and say "Oh hey I really want to buy Oblivion. And I need a hard drive for my xbox to play Fallout 3 GOTY. Oh I should go through the back-logs of The Amazing Spider-Man and buy a few copies. Wow, look at all those Bluray movies... I should buy a few and go get a Blu-Ray player!"
There went my paycheck. I could easily do that for about four months. That's like $3,200! (assuming I could find a job that could pay $600 every two weeks. I just used that because it seemed like a nice number.) Then I think I'd finally have enough stuff that I'd actually start saving some money.

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I have a very real problem which is taking much of my life out of me. I don't know whether everyone around me are assholes or if it is just me.

My mother -which is the only person in my family I live with- tends to nag me a lot about me being a horrible person in every possible aspect of my life. Then again, she's an overweight woman who smokes three packs of cigarettes a day, doesn't work, sucks on her lover's money and almost never gets up from her bed. I go shopping, cook, clean the house, everything, at the same time I study and work. Still she says I'm one of the worst children one could ever have. Everyday. And I wonder wether that's true or not. I mean, maybe I actually am and I'm trying to rationalize things by underestimating her to make me not look so bad.

Then there's the other people. I have had two serious relationships--both of them cheated on me, apart from being overall terrible to me. The first one seduced my single friends whenever she had an argument with me so that they would give say she was right, and she always nagged me for getting good grades. The second one always told me how she fantasized with, well, basically everyone, and how she masturbated thinking of them. With minute detail. Both of them left me.

My 'best' friend from childhood is a very aggressive person who used to beat me almost everyday we hanged out, so I stopped going out with him. I have never established long-term friendships with any classmates as they tended to be very elitist and upper-class.

So, having come to this point, I have to wonder wether I'm doing things very, very wrong and that's why I deserve everything that happens to me, or it's just that everyone here -let's remember that I live in Spain, which is a bad country to start with; in Andalusia, the poorest and most conservative region in the country; and in Granada, where people are famous for being overly hurtful- is an asshole. Either way I'm moving from here next year. But I need to know if, and in that case what, is wrong with me, so that I can learn from it and prevent making the same mistakes when I get away from here.

If you have actually read through all that, thank you. A lot.

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Jesus, man.

None of those things are acceptable behavior from anyone - I would be pissed if someone treated me like that.

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seconded.

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The Megas: Because sex does wear blue.

I agree with Jim Fear and Megette. Those people suck.

Sounds like the girl I dated in highschool.

That is just disturbing.
If I even think briefly about someone other than Jay C in a sexual way, I feel guilty.

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Wow, a lot of people actually read through that block of text and replied to it. Thank you a lot guys, I needed some support specially today, had a rough day. I hope I'll find more reasonable people when I move away and things will start to look brighter.

Sincerely, thank you

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